But I accepted the fact that he did not want my happiness
Funny over the years i have even come to fear him incredibly bc I know in his heart he probably wants a passive agressive recenge for his son rejecting him and not wanting to be with him
And i know that he blames me for my sons views which is hilarious because i fought hard to try to get his son to continiue to love him and accwpt him through out that whole divorce tike and even for years afterwards.
Though eventually I realized that my son probably wont develop that compassion until he is about 80 or something.. Bc my son had felt very violated when he was forced to go in visitations that he did not want to do but did so only bc his father threatened horrible repucurssions of he didnt.
Whats funny is that this only made my son fight harder for wanting to make sure his father didnt have any custodial rights.
But alas now i fear my ex bc I know he doesnr want us happy.
If he did, he would let us have the home and walk away.
Then again.
Without his help we would probably lose the house bc we cannot afford the taxes AND mortgage.
So i guess we are screwed either way.
I wish he did want us happy but reality is he doesnt.
So I fear him.