Purpose of this Blog

For almost a year, I spent hours a day writing love letters to my honey trying to reconnect to his heart to the love he had/has for his baby girl.
Even though he had closed his heart off to his love in order to push himself away from his family, the way I survived and not fall into a world of hatred or despair was to stay connected to my love and encourage it to keep flowing forth through my writing.   I would often start off writing feeling despair or resenment or anger, but by the time i was done writing my heart would be opened back up to a state of ultimate love and compassion..
so it almost didn't matter that he was not able to express his love because i was able to feel irregardless of what he did or said.  i remembered and knew only the love deep in his heart.  not the fear or anger or hatred that lay on the surface causing such violent words and actions.
my honey was never able to come to terms with his pain before he left us.  but hopefully somewhere out there he will feel our love, my love especially always beating.. the universes love flowing through me out to him.
I decided I would share my love letters publicly and not just have them go to waste rotting away in some email folder.  I have no idea if it the love inside them will help anyone or not.  Or if anyone will ever read them.  But maybe somehow they will put some love out into the universe.  who knows. i do not.. i justed wanted my love for my honey shared with the world. and maybe somehow by putting it into the world, it will somehow reach and warm his heart in some form.  
i pray the love letters will not be judged harshly or critically, but somebody will hear the heart and passion that they were written from and will do something wonderful for somebody..
may we all acknowledge our connection and the beauty within ourselves.. and forgive the conciousnesses around us for their fears or frets, worries and blocks to the love within us all.